2019 Lessons & Blessings

In honor of my one month countdown to 2020 and my 24th time around the sun approaching, here are 23 beautiful gifts I received from 2019 (and one for good luck!) Take from this what you will & leave behind something 2019 gave you.

  1. Smile at everyone: you never know what kinda day someone’s having.
  2. What you put out = you get back. Everything comes full circle
  3. YIN & YANG: You gotta find the good in the bad and appreciate the bad in the good — learn from understanding
  4. feel good, look good. look good, feel good.
  5. Be a life long learner: read, watch, listen
  6. Learn from everything – the good, the bad, the expected, the unexpected
  7. be grateful! I am so lucky for the life I’ve been blessed with from the wonderful universe!
  8. Listen to your intuition, your body, the universe & what the person speaking to you is saying ALWAYS
  9. character is who you are when no one is watching
  10. let dogs smell your hand before you pet them (maybe also ask their owner)
  11. you can’t trust everyone B U T you can learn from everyone
  12. Be positive Be optimistic. B, look on the bright side.
  13. always be prepared to rollll with it (especially if ‘it’ is a Backwood)
  14. DRINK WATER! Hydrate before you diedrate.
  15. Treat your body like the beautiful temple it is.
  16. Stay wild flower child & say yes to all experiences
  17. Treat others the way you want to be treated = O {full circle}KARMA
  18. know when to stop & know when to start
  19. Save those $dollar$ (you never know when you’ll need them)
  20. LET IT BE: the past is the past, the future is the future, THIS IS THE PRESENT
  21. Always put your best foot & your best face forward
  22. love yourself, you’re the only person that has to<3
  23. You can’t always get what you want & that is OKAY! chill out dude.
  24. what you put in, you get out — your self, body, relationships, work, life

Cheers to all the lessons and blessing I received from 2019,

xo Bri

p.s. don’t forget to leave a lesson or blessing below!

Bad Romance

The seasons have changed and so have I,

If you asked me if I missed you,

at first I would say no.

I’d tell you that I lost my feelings

quite some time ago.

I guess I’d reconsider

when I’d see your smile frown.

I’d say I had been bitter

and for sometime I was down.

I would ask if you missed me

but the truth is: I don’t care

because I’m finally happy

and the truth I need not spare.

As for our time together,

yes sometimes I do go back

brought on by change of weather,

all the good times have gone black.

Do I miss the way you kissed

or raised your hand at me?

All the days I’ve filled with bliss

now you’re a memory.

By: Brianna Cruz

Poem inspired by Instagramer @pia.mayumder

The Mystery Blogger Award

First and foremost, I need to give the creator of Helen’s Journey a major THANK YOU! I’m such a fan of blogger tags but never get the chance to complete any, that was until this wonderful soul tagged me. My favorite part of Helen’s Mystery Blogger Award post was getting to know more about her personally, which in turn helped me view her posts a lot differently. The most amazing aspect of blogging for me and the blogging community as a whole is getting to know the individuals on the other side of the screen.

The Mystery Blogger Award

Directly quoted from the creator herself, in her post My Greatest Creation Yet: The Mystery Blogger Award, Okoto Enigma explains:

Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; they do it with so much love and passion.

– Okoto Enigma

Want to get to know the creator of Bri Cuz I Said So better? Keep reading!

Three Facts:

  1. My favorite colors right now are pink, yellow, and green.
  2. I’ve written poetry for about 10 years now but have finally become comfortable sharing my words with others.
  3. One habit/hobby I’m loving right now is journaling. As you can probably tell; I’m a fan of writing and reflecting.

Q1: What book would you recommend I read and why?

One book I would recommend to EVERYONE is You Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life by Jen Sincero. This was the first self-help book I ever picked up and three years later I’m still grateful to have found it. The first time I took it chapter by chapter instead of reading straight through. I still check back in every now and then when I begin to feel like I’m falling off or unsure of myself.

Each time I read this, I use a different color pen or highlights to outline the points that are extra important to me during that time. I learn something new every time, it’s the book that keeps on giving!

Q2: What have you learned about that you would want to share with other bloggers or aspiring bloggers?

One thing I’ve learned about blogging that I’d like the world to know is that numbers don’t matter if you’re creating content you genuinely enjoy. I used to focus solely on stats until I realized I was creating content I didn’t even care for; it seemed like I had forgotten why I had started to begin with. Once I began creating things I enjoyed again, I found that not only did others enjoy it more as well but I also spent more time looking through my own old posts and becoming re-inspired.

Q3: Which is your favorite blog post or poem of mine and why?

My favorite post on Helen’s Journey currently is Using CREATIVE WRITING / POETRY / PROSE & SONG LYRICS, to express yourself & your inner emotions towards different experiences in life! Although this post is dated, it’s on a topic that not only piqued my interest but inspired me to inquire how I can use writing to help both others and myself.

Q4: If you could change one thing in the world what would it be and why?

If I could change one thing about the world, I’d like to significantly decrease violence in everyday life. While in some cultures violence is a means to survival, it pains me to see violence as a criminal activity used to hurt, shame, and breakdown others. From watching it on TV to observing first hand in everyday life, I just don’t have the stomach for violence and an individual’s need to cause hurt and pain to others.

Q5: If you had to choose one place you have been to, to recommend others to visit – where would it be and why? (This doesn’t need to be abroad, it could be in your local area or anywhere.)

One place I would recommend everyone visit at least once is Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. During my first ever solo trip, I spent a few days here and was so inspired by the entire environment. You can check out my post A Trip to Pitt to see what I did to pass time during my mini-vacation. I may have to plan a second Pennsylvania tour in 2021.

Q6: If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?

If I didn’t have to sleep (or work) I would spend my extra time reading, painting, and calling my friends and family on the phone. I’d spend time learning new recipes to try as well as take up another language (as I’ve been trying for forever now).

Thank you for the nomination, Helen’s Journey!

My Blogger Nominees:

Budding Regardless | IG: @imbalenhle_k

Coffee with Abby | IG: @abigailclifford

Ayse Merve Demir | IG: @ayseemerve

Being Chloe | IG: @being_chloe


Aley in Wonderland | IG: @Aleyinwonderland

DON’T GIVE A JAM | IG: @dontgiveajam

JustNatonya | IG: @justnatonya

Meili Fisayo | IG: @meilifisayo

Rosie Culture | IG: @rosieculture

ablondeinthecrowd | IG: @fit_blondie_mj

My 5 Questions for you to answer!

(Feel free to include any answered in this post as well.)

  1. How did you come up with the name for your blog?
  2. What is your absolute favorite tale? Do you prefer the book or the movie?
  3. Do you like to work in chronological order or do you tend to hop around different areas when completing a task/post?
  4. What are the top three places on your travel destinations wish list right now?
  5. Who/what is your inspiration behind the content you create?
  6. *BONUS QUESTION* What do you think is good about being your age? What is difficult?

The Mystery Blogger Award Rules

1. Put the award logo/image on your blog.

helens journey blog wins mystery blogger award

2. List the rules.
3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog. (link to this post)
4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well.
5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself.
6. Answer the questions you were asked.
7. Nominate 10-20 people & notify.
8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify).
9. Share a link to your best post(s).

My Best (Favorite) Posts:

Until next time,

xo Bri

Can't Find the Write Words

I looked for inspiration

from books upon the shelves

from leaders of the nations

from waves inside of shells

I listened for the voices

of rhyming little elves

surrounded me with noises

and lots of ringing bells.

Even though I listened,

I still can’t find the words

and somethings always missing.

Thoughts fly away like birds.

By: Brianna Cruz

Things My Mother Told Me

When I was a child

my mother would say,

“you’re free to be wild,

now go run and play.

be happy and hopeful

wherever you go.

Don’t forget a notebook

when you hit the road!

Always look up,

stretch your arms to the sky.

Pour from your cup

but know when to say bye.

Lead with your heart

but still think with your head.

Your life is your art

and the books you have read.”

By: Brianna Cruz

Winter 2019

The snow on all the tops of trees

has had me stuck inside.

I miss the sun and summer breeze,

a heat that sparked my pride.

Can we just turn the time back please

when you were by my side;

when running was a quick release

and no one ever died.

The year has slipped away from me,

it’s taken all my time.

But there you have it,

here you go;

a quick, sweet

breakfast rhyme.

by: Brianna Cruz

December 2019


There are places I have never known

Where I have felt so at home

And maybe not with sleep or rest

Though to my soul those feel the best

So safe with vulnerability

Unknown but comfy, home to me

So soft with sheets from cotton sheets

Where pain and worrisome retreats

If I could stay and think a while

The cold glass, metal, and the tile

To press on with my fingertips

And secrets that won’t sink my ships

by: Brianna Cruz


Cover Image by: Google

If We Were Having Coffee…

If we were having coffee, I’d start with “long time, no see!”

It’s been some time since the last time we sat down to sip and I hope you can forgive me for my absence. If we were having coffee, we’d most likely be doing so over a FaceTime call during this time of social distancing. I’d ask what you’re doing to fill your free time and remind you; now is the time to do the things you said you would do if you could find the time.

I’d like to use this time to freeze the world out and chat about the things that have been on my mind lately. While this epidemic is concerning for us all, I find it essential to check out a few moments a day to avoid additional panic and anxiety from creeping into these moments I can better spend creating, writing, and understanding.

If we were having coffee, I would be so excited to chat you up about my time in South Beach, Miami for Spring Break!

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For spring break this year I decided to go on a last-minute trip with some pals to Florida. This was my first spring break trip ever and I had a grand time. I’d say the most tortured part of the trip aside from the unbearable sunburn, was the seventeen-hour drive both there and back. From catching rays on the beach to catching up with new and old friends, this was a trip I will never forget. I feel very fortunate to have returned home at the dawn of this quarantine time.

Some of my favorite places I visited, aside from the beach, include Wet Willies, Club Mango’s, and Clevelander Bar. I met some of the nicest people during my time on South Beach and look forward to planning a solo trip there soon!

If we were having coffee of course, the topic of music would come up.

We’d be scrolling through my new favorite songs on my Spotify playlist: stuck in bed, stuck in my head. One of my favorite bands in State College recently dropped a hit on Spotify, click here to listen to In My Head by Lowjack.

As I may have mentioned, one of my favorite things about my nighttime job is that I get to listen to live music every night. Along with Lowjack, some of my other favorites that perform at the Phyrst include Piano Fight Club, Ted and the Hi-Fi’s, The Corner Brothers, and Donny Burns & the 3rd Degree.

If we were having coffee, I’d catch you up on some website updates from the last time we spoke.

During our time apart, I updated my Portfolio and changed up how you can contact me! After purchasing my domain earlier this year, I’ve been doing some research on how to make my website more welcoming. Let me know what you think in the comments!

If we were having coffee, I’d scroll through images of my new artwork for you. I created a piece for a great friend of mine and was lead off into an artistic tangent. I used wax from old crayons with a heat gun, acrylic paints, and an open mind. Scroll through my portfolio to see more.

If we were having coffee, I would like to take time to say thank you so much for visiting me every once in a while and taking a peek at some things that go on inside my head. In the next few months, I’d like to get back to posting regularly while trying out new styles of writing. Thank you for liking, commenting, and mentioning what you’ve seen to friends. Thank you for the times you’ve let me make you chuckle or teach you something new. Thank you for being you and accepting me for me.

Thank you. Gracias. Merci.

xo Bri

Deep Down

I know somewhere beyond the sky

My brain floats up around, so high.

The smoke fills up my lungs and room

And in this state I feel no gloom.

I can’t feel mad or sad or rage;

I should feel happy at this age.

But why do I need weed and wine

To make me feel alright and fine?

See when they’re gone I feel so sad

and hurt, enraged, lonely, and mad.

So while I can enjoy this high,

I’ll let my brain float past the sky.

April 7, 2015

by Brianna Cruz

Photo by Riccardo Pelati on Unsplash.



like our life

lines that never touch

but thinking of those hands

my dear

gives me quite the rush

imaging the softest kiss

with lips foreign to mine

already feel my hairs stand up

from fingers down my spine

you’d say you just can’t get enough

and brush hair from my face

i think the tension might errupt

as you invade my space

all these thoughts,

like memories

go swimming through my head

feelings flood inside of me

from things i’ve left unsaid

by Brianna Cruz

February 12, 2020

Photo by Sylvie Tittel on Unsplash