Behind The Art: Blow My Brains Out

TW: Suicide, Anxiety & Depression

Resources to Support Mental Health and Coping with the Coronavirus (COVID-19) by SPRC

From a young age, I’ve struggled with severe anxiety and depression. Unfortunately, I often felt I had nowhere to turn so I put my emotions into my art and poetry. This piece, Blow My Brains Out, was created during a depressive episode when I was contemplating suicide but knew it wasn’t time for me to leave Earth just yet. After reading Resumé by Dorothy Parker, I laid in bed thinking of what each method would look like for me and how I would prefer to die. Morbid, I know but that’s where my depression dragged me.

Blow My Brains Out is an artistic expression of how I imagined the outcome of committing suicide by a self afflicted gunshot wound to the head would look. Using crayons and a blow drier, I created this piece during my freshman year of college while on winter break. The color in this piece represents the moments of happiness and good memories that were trapped somewhere in my head when I felt I couldn’t get to them.

If you are struggling with anxiety and depression during this time, here are resources that can help!

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1(800)-273-TALK [8255]

cheers to finding a meaningful way to couple with my mental health afflictions, xo Bri

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